GabrieL

yeah, y not…

it’s www.xanga.com/gabrielkwok

so long friendsterblog….or would it b see u later. lol

i’ve actually just got another blog started, but not sure if i would wanna make it public. hmmm..well, just like these few days, i feel very indecisive bout everything.

neways, tomorrow’s gonna be a busy day again. fark! how come my holiday is much more bussier than uni days?!

好dry呀…雖然生活節奏都幾忙， 不過個心靈真的好dry.

hai…

today is the kind of day where u just feel nothing is right. well, at least all ‘plans’ worked out in the opposite way. damn!

First dissaster. suppose to go yum cha with mom n sis yesterday morning but they said they have to go to church n hence, posponed it to today. well, instead of yum cha, having japanese in Glenferrie rd sounds a better choice. didnt really have a deep sleep as was worried how sick melissa is doing. heard my mom’s voice this morning about 10 something telling my sis to get ready coz someone is coming to pick them up to go to Dandenongs. me lying on bed thinking ‘wat d heck?! aren’t we suppose to go for lunch?! at about 1pm, my mom sms me telling me that they can’t make it for lunch as they’re going to a church conference and to change lunch to dinner tomorrow. damn…betrayed me for church conference! what the heck?! never mind….

got up, had my shower, ate some noodles, sat down infront of the computer browsing around as usuall. checked out those usuall sites that i broweds everyday, which are theage.com, thestar.com.my, check friendster, check email, read blogs bla bla bla. pakced my bag, coz wanna go to melissa’s place after work to be with her (haven’t seen her for 2 weeks) since she wont be feeling happy her family’s gone back to sg. she asked me to go to her place after work as well, so packed my cloth n off to tram stop.

work work work work.

jeff sms me to see if i’d wanna go to bubbles or not after work. told him last night that it’s ok but just wont wanna b that hyper. made up my mind to go for a while than i could go to melissa’s palce after that.

well, i’m lazy n dont really wanna write down what happened after that. conclusion is that i’m now sitting at home in front of d pc listening to faye wong typing all these shit. in short, plan A (lunch at Hawthorn) failed. fine. plan B (to go to melissa’s place) failed. plan C (bubbles) failed.

yeah. great. home sweet home. at least i’m Not frustrated, Not sick n Not tired.

might as well go look for xiao chun tmr for lunch. than have bbq after that. whatever…

shhhh….silence is good….keep it this way, just like how it used to be.

  喧嘩酒家中 擁擠的小巷中
　他拉著等待著 誰為他而動容
　音樂沒人懂
　打賞要人懂 因為他真的很窮

　漆黑北風中飄渺的燭光中
　他想他總能為人們奏出彩虹
　音樂自己懂
　一樣有聽眾沿途點亮　他命運的燈籠
　二泉映月　他才不管紅與不紅

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贝多芬 等灵感诞生 偏偏等到病魔来围困
命运它敲门 用音乐斗争
你在等着也算是福份

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可能是　但是未成事
幾乎是　但是未曾是
原來或者假使暗戀你　太久
瞞著自己歡喜已足夠
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沒有意義　你想我講你知
沒有意義　你知我想　我想
別問我何事　為你做各樣傻事
是　是都不必講你知
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又怎麼可以　耐心解釋你知
又不歪曲意思　是為你瘋癲至此
是　是都不可制止
是　是都不講你知

沒有意義　你想　我講　你知
沒有意義　你知　我想　我想
沒有意義　你想　要知　容易
沒有意義　你知　我想　我想

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沒話説嘛，所以掰了這些出來。有沒有意思？我也不曉得。這一刻，只想一直掰下去。

damn! it’s already april! how fast time can just go past, the miracle of it is that you dont even realize it’s gone or have no idea what you have done (i’ve already taken out the word ‘achieve’) so far.

it’s been quite a busy semester for me, frankly, i dont know what i’m busy with. i’ve came up with a few excuses. yeah, excueses. that’s typical me.

1. I’m taking 2 non-music subjects (Accounting and Management) this semester. Knowing how relax music course could be, the 2 subjects which requires me heaps of attention is giving me all the work loads which i have long missed.
2. Work. Though I’ve cut down a night shift (Wednesday) compared to last year’s 4 night shifts (from Wed till Sat), it make no difference sometimes. I’m now only working on Thurs till Sat but  because business is getting better, meaning bussier, which again means I have to go back to help up on some Sundays.
3. Melissa came in. She’s a very understanding and great gf eventhough i dont see her as often as what a bf should be doing. hey, not to say you’re a burden, it’s just something that i didnt have last year.
4. Weather is getting cold. i’m getting sleepier, lazier.

didnt really have time to meet up with frens or just to chill out like how we used to b. lol. met up with wan yee for wine on friday night. than lunch with June yesterday in uni before class. Lots of catching up to do.

hmmm..optus and 3G both unreachable. yeah.

yun shing的成分：

• 不良思想：28.94%
• 性慾：28.12% (mua ha ha ha…)
• 大宇宙的意志：26.55%
• 天然呆：7.31% (so little?)
• 天下第一舉世無雙絕對無敵真正非常超越超級震古鑠今空前絕後刀槍不入無堅不摧無所不能好厲害：6.07% (tsk!tsk! hehaehaehhae)
• 海之冰：1.67%
• 宿便：0.95%
• 王水：0.38%

gabriel的成分：

• 巨大蘿蔔：34.18%
• 海之冰：33.26%
• 智慧：20.99%
• 膿：5.55%
• 愛：3.51%
• 鬼東西：1.52%
• 戀兄情結：0.80%  (ng hai ar ma)
• 彈幕：0.19%

n 仲有melissa 0既成分：

• 膿：60.23%
• 怨念：18.18%
• 王水：13.58%
• 海之冰：6.09%
• 海水：1.07%
• 黑暗：0.79%

hmm….ng hai ho ming wor…

Although schizophrenia affects men and women with equal frequency, the disorder often appears earlier in men, usually in the late teens or early twenties, than in women, who are generally affected in the twenties to early thirties. People with schizophrenia often suffer terrifying symptoms such as hearing internal voices not heard by others, or believing that other people are reading their minds, controlling their thoughts, or plotting to harm them.

though it’s only a day u went to brisbane….

went for ‘wine-session’ with wan yee. was really good. had fun!

miss you dearly….

sometimes ppl get frustrated…sometimes for some particular reason, sometimes for nth. for me, i dont usually get frustrated or be in a bad temper for nth. it’s been a long time since i got myself into feeling frustrated for my own sake. hmm…prob i’m doing a greater deal, carring more. whatever…

i’ve prob changed throughout these few years. dont like and dont want to force anybody into any situation, to do things they dont like or wouldn’t wanna do it. prob this is also y i never get things done.

’speechless’, ‘undescribable’. r they d same thing?

dont really know how n wat to write.